Here I go....Scream My LUNGS OUT...

This is really nice..

2005-01-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

The Used - Buried Myself Alive
You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm...Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
[Chorus:] *I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask*

I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
[Chorus]*
Nicer than that
Nicer than that..

With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you
[Chorus]*
Nicer than that
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that

Lazy day...

2005-01-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yup...I'm off today. And spent the whole day at home..woke up at 12
plus......hahahaha...
Felt so great! And did housework the whole afternoon with mummy... early
training i guess...muahaha!!

It was mummy's birthday yesterday, ate out for dinner and got a cake for
her. She's 50..but doesn't look anything like it...hope it's genetic!
hehe... I already got her a bag that she wanted. And a bracelet as well..which
im actually sharing with Joey. I gave it to her on his behalf. He called her to
wish her happy birthday...so sweet.. =)

The weekend that passed was really great. I cabut early from work and we
went Carrefour to buy stuff for our roastbeef sandwiches. Ended up in a grocery
shopping spree..haha.. They didn't have roastbeef..so bought some ham and other
stuff. Anyways...there was the Tiger Cup that evening, so everything was
perfect...we had our sandwiches on olive ciabatta and I baked cookies! And they
turned out pretty good! I've finally overcome the wrath of my crazy oven!!
The makings of a really good housewife are staring to be
apparent.....hahaha...whatever...

The Swiss hotel school have replied to Joey...things starting to look
promising. But if he goes after his NS...its gonna be for 10 months...thats
pretty fast for a degree..but its gonna seem like ages for me waiting back
home.... I know its a really good experience for him to study overseas...but im
also dreading it...I really suck at being alone...arghh... =(

This is so sucky....he won't be able to book out this weekend.....cuz of
some stupid training at tekong........ sigh....and double sigh.... until
then...bye!

Pa's Birthday... 12 jan

2005-01-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

It was Pa's 54th birthday on the 12th. After work had to rush home to get
ready for dinner. Pa borrowed his boss's van and we all went to changi to have
seafood! The van damn shiok lah..its those mercedes van and the back has a lot
of space. His boss put an old sofa behind..so Cheryl and I sat on it..the most
comfy van ride i ever had! haha... I told pa we should get a van...cheaper than
car and so much more useful.

The dinner was great... ate so many crabs...there was also bbq
stingray..Lala..Kailan..and many many other things... After everything, we cut
the cake...Swensen's Mango ice cream cake...so shiok!!! Lucky next day off
sia...if not confirm cannot wake up.

So my new wardrobe and shelf came on the 13th....by the time everything was
set up and cleaned out....i finally went to bed at almost 2am...so tired
sial....but my room looks damn good la... =)

This entry is being done at work...so later tonight i continue la... can
slowly take my time to think what to type......... Vel's coming in soon.........
Super hyper lorsoh kaypoh....but very nice and sweet gal... I think the three
most fun people to work with...Emma, Huiling and Vel.... last time always say
bad things about vel..hehehe...but actually now feeling bad...she listens to
what i say lor...quite hardworking..but likes to complain a lot..okok lah..now i
also lorsoh..hahaha...bye!

First post of the year...

2005-01-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

Heyhey... been a while ya..sorry!
I've got a new partner at work... and damn its Vel!!! You should have seen my face when I heard the news.. haha...but its been more than a week and its been real great.. she's actually a really nice person.
Really very kaypoh and irritating...but really nice and gerek to the max! Really sia...surf net together during shifts and stuff.. teaching me alot about online shopping and swapping makeup tips..haha...
Work still sucks though, but I actually feel happier nowadays...not so much wanting to quit anymore. I guess its cuz Im in charge of the shop again! Haha...can make my own decisions and it feels good to have this responsibility. I mean, its stressful, but at the same time it feels good.
sheesh..dunno what im talking about sia...
Anyways...I got Joey the Creative Muvo Slim that he wanted... he was so surprised...i thought he would have guessed what i would have gotten for him, but he didn't! haha... And the best part is that i get to use the player during weekdays while he's in camp... hehe...ya la, I know i got it for him, but at least its being put to full use rather than sitting at his home rotting away while he's not around.
Oh ya...got a new addiction... "Buried myself alive" by The Used. Its a really great song! Didn't like it at first, but after listening to it so many times over and over...and realising the lyrics were so meaningful...now im really into it..and starting to listen to other songs by The Used. They're a really cool band. Oh..and "Firewater" by Yellowcard. The violin part is so cute! it makes the song sound so refreshing...haha..if i can describe it that way la...its such a sweet song...and so sad.. into this emo thing already... haha... and the funniest thing is that i have totally nothing to be emo about la...haha..
And....Joey and i went to Ikea on saturday..i took mc...haha.. i finally bought my wardrobe and display shelf..everything's being delivered on thursday... can't wait..can't wait!!! =) Gonna have a new really cool room...not that it isn't cool already..ahem..hahaha.. i mean, who else has got a blue and purple room? And we're not talking baby blue here.. with crazy lookin curtains and the door spray-painted blue.. =) hee...

Tomorrow's Pa's birthday, turning 54...old sial... haha...me too! gonna be 23!!! arghh!!! freaking out here!!!! If i stuck to my childhood dreams or goals..whatever u call them...i would be freaking married by next year...oh gawd!!! Im OLD!!! ok...back to my pa...we going to changi to have seafood tomorrow night with the family. And i miss Joey.... its gettin harder and harder each day... i seriously hate this NS thing. it sucks so much... sigh..

Im so tired now....gonna try to go to bed...........ZZzzzzzzZZzzz....nitey!!

Hangover!!

2004-12-28T20:41:00.000+08:00

Hey... been ages since my last post.. been really busy with work! Full shift throughout xmas week... killer sial...
BUt im more or less glad how everything's turned out this year.. especially with my love life..hehe..that has turned out most perfectly.. =)

Budget was really low this year for the gifts.. managed only one gift per person.. usually im more generous..but i had so many things to pay for this month..really bad timing..
Managed to pass Cassie her gift too..hope she likes it.. she got me a similar keychain too..great minds think alike! hahaha.. Sent cards to all my long lost friends as well.. erm..actually only grace and celine la.. haha.. hope they liked the cards.. this year was the first in many years that i actually sent out cards...so be thankful if u received one from me...hahahaha...just kidding.. Its just that i always forget to send them out early enough and by the time i remember, it would have been too late... anyways... i havn't bought joey's gift.. told him it would be belated..that means after pay day.. which is today!! and guess wat?? i've got bonus!!! A lousy stinking miserable bonus...but good enough to get what i wanna get for him ANd pay off all my bills too! AND i can give mummy a big hong bao too..=)

I miss him so badly... and i hate work so badly too... and im most probably resigning soon anyway...
should be around february.. might be joining Doreen in Mobile Kids.. its this project completely sponsored by Daimler Crystler.. they go from school to school setting up booths and stuff and teach kids about road safety. The kids get to play interactive games and stuff and its a totally new thing that's gonna be really big in the singapore. It started out in germany already and it was a huge hit... So..the team in s'pore needs facilitators to work with the kids and stuff like that and Im being given an opp to go try it out.. wish me luck cuz its something dat i neva imagined myself doing! working with kids! Im really stepping outta the box this time..but its a great opp..so.. we'll see how things go..

adios amigos!!!

Official NS girlfriend....

2004-12-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

Yes..im now an official NS girlfriend. Went to Joey's POP yesterday.. =)
Im supposed to go with his mum, but ended up going with Ramdan, his best friend. It was quite fun..felt a bit like going to Batam or some island resort for holiday! I expected the ferry to be some SAF kind of thing or some old rickety looking boat..haha.. but it was a nice air-con ferry with tv mobile! Oh well, at least the journey there was comfortable. Tekong doesn't look like anything i've ever imagined...it was so resort-like! But I know if i was a recruit going back to camp it would feel like hell lah..
Anyways..it was a really hot and humid day and around 3 or 4 in the afternoon..the hottest time of the day!! I really pitied them all standing on the parade square in the hot sun waiting for the MP to finish his speech.. and 3 people fainted! All from the same company!! I was so hoping my baby wouldn't faint..but i knew he would be tough enough to endure that kind of thing..and i know he wouldn't wanna faint in front of his girlfriend mah... hehe..
Me and Ramdan went down to the parade square to put his cap on for him..and we took photos and stuff like that.. felt so proud of my boyfriend! Though it felt like the worst was over...it wasn't...cuz Joey had bad news.. I dunno whether i should call it bad news or not.. He kena posted to guards.. Bad news is that the training is really tough and there's overseas training and stuff like that. But the good news is that his camp is most prob in bedok and night's off from 6pm and his home is nearby.. and I think they are paid much better.. Actually im not too sure about what's gonna happen..all i know is that the both of us have to suffer a little bit for the next one and a half years or so....
It sux a lot now cuz we are such a new couple..and new couples go out alot and do lotsa stuff together.... but we seldom get to see each other and the little time we spend together is so precious! The one good thing is that if we can survive NS together..the rest of our journey would be pretty much smooth sailing...
We were talking about this kind of thing last night..and Joey was saying that our personalities are like two worlds apart but when we are together, we just seem to click.. I think that we just compliment each other's personality perfectly...so..sometimes its good to be different..hehe.. BUt...one weird thing is that we have similar tastes in so many things.. it sometimes gets a little creepy..hahaha.. ONe of my favourite songs from Oasis is The MAsterplan...and he was surprised that i actually knew about that song...cuz it wasn't popular or anything..but he liked it alot too.. our dislike for onions and certain vegetables..haha.. we both love bangkok.. we both are pathetic at chinese... we both have more malay friends than chinese friends.. we both have bad teeth..hahaha.. we even share the same scar on our hands..and we both dunno how we got it in the first place...hahha... oh well.. guess its meant to be.. I just love him so much.. =)
BYE!!!

RElief!!

2004-12-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

Harlow...
Finally...Doreen is back at citylink!! after two months
of long leave! leaving me in the ditch..doing all the shitty work myself!
Finally!! And she went to bank in the cash for me today and finished the rest of
the paperwork and even unpacked all the stocks for me.. =) Feels so good not
being in charge anymore...it was two long stressful months..sigh..but worth it
also la..u learn alot when u are forced into certain situations..haha.. I
even got a pay increment because they saw my potential to run the
shop by myself! hehe..me feelin so proud of myself... hahahaha... ok la..enuff
of all my crap.. Sayonara!!!

Bloody Tired!!!

2004-11-30T11:47:00.000+08:00

Im at work again...Mandy still hasn't informed us of
dec's schedule..arghh...and its december tomorrow and i don't know wat time im
working! Lousy supervisor of mine has absolutely no brain...

Anyway..I
survived yesterday's fullshift..but feelin really tired today..no mood to work.
Huiling's decided to go back to her old job at amex..which is good cuz i bet
they pay her a lot more...but now i got no more kaki to havoc with at work.. =(
Anyways...I met Andi after work last night just to chill..walked around suntec a
bit then went to esplanade for a drink. I was supposed to treat him cuz it was
payday, but i forgot to withdraw cash and ended up he paid for
me..hahaha..paiseh sia!! I dug deep into my wallet and managed to pass him 2
bucks though..hehehe...
It was fun talking to him..catching up on old times
and stuff. He still hasn't met Cassie till now and I'm waiting for her exams to
be over so we all can go out and stuff.. miss her so much!

Joey called
this morning just as i opened the shop..my baby's sick today.. =( Down with the
flu and sore throat..to make things worse, he sort of twisted his ankle the day
before and its hurting him...wish i could be there for him..guess i have to wait
till thursday...
Today Nana's coming to my house..spend some time with
mummy. She fractured her wrist about a week ago and has to stay home. But today
she has to go for the physiotherapy thing..i really dunno how to spell but
anyway...nana's going to accompany her to the hospital.. I hope she gets better
soon, its like you can feel the pain just looking at the cast on her arm..
sigh...
Alritey then...I'll continue this some other time.. Adios!!

The first ever!

2004-11-30T06:10:00.000+08:00

Wow..my first blog..and i haven't
the foggiest idea wat
to write..haha.. Anyway, im at work now. Not supposed
to use the
com to go online..but oh well! Doing fullshift today..and all by
myself.. feels
like crap and im bloody hungry and im surfing the
crimson wave today very
unhappily!! Gotta work till 9 tonight, but its
somehow my fault cuz i made
Huiling do fullshift last week when i decided to
take mc..i told her i'd pay her
back one shift..
Neways, Joey's in camp
now..i miss him so badly! But its ok cuz
thursday's his POP!! I'll be goin
to tekong with his mum..gonna feel so weird cuz im still a little uncomfortable
with her..
i always dunno wat to say to
her...
so this would be the perfect opp to
get to know her better i guess =)

Oh ya..on the 6th, we
will be celebrating
our 6th year anniversary...haha..according to my dearest
boyfriend la.. actually
its only been a month, but it sure feels like 6
years and im lovin' every
minute of it.. =)

I gotta go back to work
now, more and more customers
walking in. Looks like im gonna get good
sales today..i hope..hehe..
Cheerios!!